:D

2010-07-18T09:33:00.002+08:00

After all, we're still here

back and disappear.

2010-05-15T17:59:00.008+08:00

HEYOH!

yeah, it's been long. like really long. HAHA.

okay, just to update all major events.

YA, WE"VE GOT GLOD MEDAL FOR SYF OUTDOOR 2010. (:

then speech day which was somewhat a farewell.

thank you everyone(:

10042010 is certainly a remarkable, unforgettable, memorable and victorious day for all of us.

thank you pymb for giving all we got, putting out very best out there. :D

and bye to all our dear seniors, i hope we can go for the international competitions together. so it's not really byebye. :D

for the next batch which is my batch, now is our turn to lead the band and maintain the glory and discipline that we've got. jiayou(:

next, MID-YEAR EXAMS.

now left with 2 papers, maths P2 and d&t. yay~

i hope my results improve. haha. term one result was a disaster. MUAHAHA.

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band should be resuming very soon. jiayou, treasure every moment. left with another syf competition only. haha.

i'm going for wuhan trip soon also, 26th may to 4th june, 10days. and going back to indo on 11th june, finally. but only me going back, so i'll be alone there. HAHA. will feel how it is to be the 'only' child. HAHAHAHAH.

i admire nigahiga. HAHAH.

okay, end of post.

i think i'm not going to update this blog of mine for some time. so ya, don't feel so disappointed opening my blog and foung no new post cos i already told you. (:

signing off~

3 more days..

2010-04-06T22:12:00.003+08:00

3 more days to our big big day!

Syf's just 3 days away. We've been counting down from it's 150 over days and now it's just a single digit. We've been through all this together for 5 months since december band camp? Ups and downs, thick and thin. We've really worked hard and put in a lot of effort for just the 8-minute-performance, so please give your best shot. Don't leave any regret knowing that you could have done better. 3 days more only. Everyone has given their support for us; the school, principal, instructors, teachers, parents, uncle ali, etc. I am sure none of us want to disappoint anyone especially ourselves. Therefore, no matter what, we'll always stand by each other, give encouragement for each other as we are ping yi marching band family and be proud. Along this journey, we've made a tremendous progress from what i can see. i am sure we can do it, we will bring our glory back, we will make everyone proud of us. Many people have faith in us so we also must believe in ourselves. Don't be demoralised by what the others say and by what you hear.

When we wait for the results, it will feel like forever though may be it's merely 10 or 15 minutes. Standing there with our chins up high and holding our instruments very anxiously, hoping to get the best, "Ping Yi Secondary School, ......". It will be an unforgettable memory of your life. However, although the result is very important, the process is more important than the result so whatever medal that we'll get, be proud of it. "Pain is temporary. Glory is forever."

from the deepest depth of my heart,

ily, pymb.

and lastly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ALEXANDRA LARISSA(SISTER)!

i know you love the present.

have you ever.

2010-03-31T21:30:00.009+08:00

feel like talking to someone about what you're troubling with when you don't know what to talk about? feel lost? feel like no one's there for you when actually there is? feel like nobody understands you? feel confused whether to let it out or keep it to yourself? feel like crying very badly but you are holding it?

i am upset.

i guess i shall cheer myself up.

something to say~ matthew west.

2010-03-30T22:39:00.003+08:00

Wake up, 7:32 AM

Can’t believe it’s time to do it over again

Yesterday, it took all that you had
And you’re wondering if you’ll ever get it back

But the whole wide world is waiting for

Waiting for you to step out that door
Come on, and let your life be heard today
You’ve got something to say

If you’re living, if you’re breathing
You’ve got something to say
You know if you’re heart is beating

You’ve got something to say

And no one can say it like you do
God is love and love speaks through
You got it, you got it
You’ve got something to say

Listen up, I got a question here
Would anybody miss you if you disappeared
Well your life is the song that you sing
And the whole wide world is listening

Well the answer to the question is

You were created, your life is a gift
And the lights are shining on you today

2010-03-29T22:44:00.005+08:00

Do you know that I feel so blessed to have met you and known you?

i wanna go home.

2010-03-28T21:26:00.005+08:00

i love this advertisement (though it's a cigarette company ad)

i'll just say today just isn't my day. hah. went to church then spent the whole day at home. managed to read up part 2 of my lit book which is like 6 chapters, i also practically read it. somewhat a practice for oral exam tmr. HAHAHA.

anyway, today's sermon was about 'humility of love'. learn to serve others instead of being served. and pastor also said, "Love is not choosy." it left me thinking for a short while, and yes i agree.

happy belated birthday to jonathan, bingchow and BRAYAN.

and happy birthday, siti!

countdown: 12 more days.

i hope brayan's dream come true, yes it will(:

okay, i'm speechless. signing off.

sooner or later the truth will be shown.

2010-03-22T23:40:00.009+08:00

hey, bestfriend.

i can feel that it's been tough on you. i know you're feeling down although you tell me that you're okay. i can see and feel, you know. i know you don't want me to worry about you but how can i not worry about you? i'm concerned. i'll always be there for you like how you've always been there for me. hope you're fine now. best friends go through ups and downs together right? (: it's okay if you don't wanna tell me why and what's happened although i wish you could tell me so that i can understand. well, it doesn't really matter. just know that you still have me with you. remember, every cloud has a silver lining. be strong, okay? you can always turn to me whenever you need someone to talk to, to cheer you up or anything. you'll always be my retarded bestfriend. HAHAHAH. here's a bigbigbig hug for you. ily, bestfriend.

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D this is for you. HEHEHE. i'll put a flower on your ear. you very pretty la. HAHAHAHAHAH.

brightens things up a lil.

2010-03-20T01:19:00.004+08:00

HAHAHA.

HAHAHA(2)

HAHAHA(3)

you never fail to put a smile on my face~

4 months 23 days.

2010-03-20T00:54:00.005+08:00

time flies so fast, too fast indeed.

TERRIFYING.

21 more days to SYF.

and 3 more days to our only one-hour-rehearsal.

2010-03-10T22:51:00.002+08:00

'to procrastinate', i want to hate it. throw it away. erase it from my dictionary. cancel it away from my what-i-will-do list.

today is completely different from what i thought it would be.

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edited.

WTH. dont jump into conclusions, can?

grr. sigh. ]:

God's with me(:

2010-03-08T22:58:00.002+08:00

i feel rather down.

but i realized i'm not alone, i still have people supporting me and cheering me up. thank you!♥

for my sisters, olivia and alexandra;

looking at a picture of us when we're still kids and looking at us now, i realized how fast time flies, how far we've grown up and changed, remember all those good as well as bad memories of us together. Ups and downs, we've been through it all together. i'm sorry for hurting you and your feelings sometimes, whether it's directly or indirectly, whether i mean it or i don't. so sorry. it's been 15 years that i live with you, we understand each other although sometimes we choose not to. thank you for making me who i am now. yes, we're not perfect sisters, that is definitely true but i thank you for everything and i love you no matter what happens in the future.

your dearest little sister,

vania♥

i needa be strong. yes, i am strong. thank you God, i know You're with me, i need not to be afraid.

for you~

2010-03-06T21:44:00.003+08:00

;302

100th post!

=D c: [: (: {: d: <: ><

HAHAHAHA

finally.

back from sec 3 camp yesterday. oh yes, i did preserve water as i din bathe for two days during the camp. MUAHAHAHAHA! but i did waste alot of wet tissue to wipe my whole body and powder too. HEHEHE. powder bath works!

i guess the funnest part of the camp is the kayaking. my class isn't that bonded. hah, sad uh. all the cheena people make their own groups and talk among themselves only. fyi, half of my class contains of foreigners and mostly are from china. so throughout the camp, i din really feel like i'm in the camp with my whole class, no bond, no communication, no co-operation. well, everything needs process. but overall, the camp was okay (:

yeyow yuyer=yellow ruller. HAHAHAHA inside joke*

voraphat now definitely understand how power can make people become evil. HAHAHAHA also inside joke*

ohya, my class has a quite number of gays, you know. HAHAHAHA. GAY BOY! =D

boom diayana~

so after reaching school from ubin, straight away went to canteen and ate lunch. HAHA. then went for band afterward. (:

after band, i was craving for seaweed chicken so went to bbt. but so sad that there's no more seaweed chicken. hah, never mind. so home sweet home luh.

of cos when im homed already, i straight away bathed. yes, no more preserving water. no more using of powder. no more needing wet tissue. no more no bathing for days. i was so tired and had slight fever, so i went to sleep. =D

YAY, finally went to lalaland peacefully.

it's a nice feeling to know that someone understands what you've been through or what you're going through, know that someone understands you. but don't hope too much, there are not many people people that will understand you. some just jump into conclusions, only agree with what they're thinking without caring others' feelings.

i know that no body's perfect. i'm imperfect, too.

expect the unexpexted.

heart.

uphold me in your prayer.

2010-03-01T21:16:00.004+08:00

someone, who makes you whine until die, rocks your life!

HAHAHAHAHA

99th post!

on sunday, i went to church and pastor Gan said something that now is always remembered by me; if you can't remember anything from the bible, just remember that GOD LOVES YOU.

for me, it has a very deep meaning, i really love that line.

IP week ===> sec 3 three-day-camp.

err, oh ow, it's on this wednesday! i'm so prepared yet unprepared. HAH.

i guess i'll learn at least something?

time flies so fast.

40 days more to SYF competition.

we've learnt movement five! which means we've finished the whole formation which consists of 57 formations!

yes, friends, we know we can do it. believe in ourselves. we've already half a journey to our goal. hang on there, keep giving your best. it's all in the mind. everything will be paid for in the end of the day. and what's important is the process throughout this journey. every moment that we share together, cherish them. we've put so much effort, i'm sure none of you wants it to go to waste. Give your best if you know that you haven't, don't wait till it's too late. a chain is no stronger than its weakest link, so help each other.

PYMB will achieve that glory back that we've been longing for.

bring it on~

signing off.

dreaming~

2010-02-22T22:38:00.006+08:00

falling water; my ideal house (:

2010-02-16T23:00:00.001+08:00

kinda like this! cool! c:

lalala~

2010-02-16T14:07:00.004+08:00

cookie and my laptop are the best company that i have for this holiday.

phone is not that important already somehow, only received a few messages that's all.

to rate, cookie will be 40%, laptop 45% and phone 15%

oh, i left out food! food will be 101% HAHAHA. it's more than best!

see my fb status?

; eat eat eat eat! beware, i might eat you too when i'm short of food! i'll make you go tanning in the afternoon ==> roasted you! hhmm, nice! sufficient for one day, i think! MUAHAHAHAHA! :O

but i don't think i'll be short of food. there's more than enough here. HAHA. so i don't think i'll eat you. :>

trying to focus on doing homework now. in this case, laptop is a disturbance.

okay, signing off.

might blog again later on. =D

i know you understand how i feel.

2010-02-15T13:32:00.009+08:00

MUAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

today, basically doing nothing.

i din know that tomorrow is holiday, it shocked me when i found out that no, tomorrow is still holiday. HAHAHA. now i must agree that this is a long break.

when i'm back to school, i want to revise all my formations, i don't wanna screw up on friday. and i also need to buy files, HAHA, long overdued. and also, my a maths homework. i've not attended my lit lessons cos some valid reasons, looking forward to it(: but wait, i haven't finished reading chapter 4! argh.

i think i'll be dropping chinese and taking CLB~ (:

YAY, but for some reasons i don't want to take CLB. ):

signing off.

in my room, lying on bed, thinking what's next.

i feel so burdened with many things, all weigh on my shoulder. i feel like i'm alone. i feel like i'm drowning to nowhere, i don't want continue already, i've got enough, i'm afraid to fail and not having second chance, i'm tired.

but when people come to me and console me, offer me their shoulders to lie on, and be listening ear, help me to find the way out, it relieved me, it made me realize that hey, i'm not alone in this world, i have them who are always there for me, care for me, love me, whom i can share my joy and sorrows with. they are the reason for me to keep going on and live on. thank you~

cepetan pulang lah! kangen~

being patient.

2010-02-15T01:07:00.002+08:00

i got no words to describe today.

too tired and too full. feel like something is missing. HAHA.

err, not in the best of mood. argh.

take care,

signing off.

you're very pretty today (:

2010-02-13T23:23:00.008+08:00

HAPPY ADVANCED VALENTINE'S DAY AND LUNAR NEW YEAR!

someone out there, thank you for making my day~

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*edited*

i found many things unexpectedly happening. well, life is way too unpredictable. i bet many of you will agree with this statement. shocking, surprising, i cant believe it. like seriously. you never thought of it, but it just happens? i din think that i would be in a marching band. i din think that i would be studying abroad. i din think that i would be what and who i am now. i din expect myself to be a student leader. i din think that i would feel what i'm feeling. i din think that i would give and receive all this. i din think, i din expect, i din know.. perhaps i don't think enough? LOL. no, it's not because of that. hey, this is life. no one knows what will happen, everything is possible and everything happens for a reason. God has planned it way long time ago for this and that to happen. everyday i learn from what i see, hear, do and get.

i ponder why am i the way i am now, why am i here, why like this, why like that, how come? when? and blablablablabla..

in the end of the day, it will all become memory that when you recall it again, you'll just smile. and be thankful that it happened.

my son :b

2010-02-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

brightens my day~

i understand.

2010-02-11T23:04:00.006+08:00

Quite a number of homework undone, hope to finish it ALL by this chinese new year break.

i'm looking forward to the time when i feel a joyful freedom, from anything and everything, when i can do what i want to do, say what i want to say. i wonder when that time will come.

as for now, i shall just be grateful and content for what i have and get. maintain and cherish everything, try not to lose anything.

2010-02-09T21:55:00.003+08:00

oh wait, did i tell you that we got a new band store at level one? it used to be the p.e department room. mdm shanti gave us that room. YEAH! no more carrying those heavy instruments all the way down from level three for the guys and the pit percussionists. much better eh? be grateful. =D

and do you realise? it's my 89th post already!

HAHAHAHA

i think i really like you. LOL!

2010-02-09T21:10:00.008+08:00

nianianianiania is here, once again.

yayayayaya.

yeah, after previous post, it's been muchmuch better.

more smiles, realization and love.

after being sick yesterday, i can see that my sisters care for me, im kinda touched. even though sometimes they are very unreasonable and not understanding enough. LOL. but really. though they din do anything so big but it's the thought that counts right? i feel like falling ill again. HAHA. NO, i don't want, being sick is so irritating and boring.

im actually looking forward to my 100th post. this post is my 88th. 12 more to go. HAHA.

i just think, my brain is like my private blog. all the things, that are not written on this blog, are in all my brain. i might have forgotten to write it here or i want to keep it for myself.

let me tell you what i did throughout the weekend;

on saturday, band! as usual. we finished movement 3.

on sunday, it's like the day to refresh and finish all homework. so first, went to church then went out to study with a pretty girl. (MUAHAHA) SO FUN, I LIKE~

and on monday, woke up with a very bad headache, decided not to go to school (though my sisters forced me to).

i'm feeling very happy although there are many homeworks to be done, alot of things that need to be done also, many things to think about and fears that keep haunting me.

wellwellwell, life goes on, you don't know what will happen next, when you will lose what you have, when you'll be gone, when the people that you love will be gone also, and more when's, so just cherish anything and everything you have now wholeheartedly.

9/2/10

is it? i don't know. HAHAHA. whatever la. it's all the same. c:

♥

signing off.

our E T

2010-02-06T23:00:00.005+08:00

i can't seem to sort out my thoughts. it's like im trying to figure out a jigsaw puzzle but i put many pieces in wrong places. no, it's not exactly like that. nevermind, whatever, the point is.... i'm confused. yeah, confused. i know what i'm feeling but i just don't understand what it is. or i can put it in another way; like you've known a person for veryveryvery long time, but you can't understand him. it makes sense, right.

recently, i found out many things which affect my thoughts and feelings. i don't know what i should do, what should be done and what's not. but at least i know what i want. well, sometimes you come to know things that you should not know and don't wanna know also. hah. everything happens for a reason?

i don't know what is wrong with me. like seriously. so, please understand me.

be patient. (:

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it's just 62 days away from syf.

we've gone through movement 3 today. one day, one movement. despite of all the sunburn we got, how much sweat we've perspired, how badly we wanted a water break (LOL), people, we've done 3 movements!

some people already don't care to put on sunblock lotion on their skin. HAHA. but at this point of time, i'm not one of them, just yet.

the field is really sandy, and worse, when it's very windy, the sand will fly all over our faces. today after band i wiped my face with a piece of tissue. WOW, the dirt is (eeee).

okay whatever. ohya, not forgetting that our school is very supportive. the angklung and modern dance joined us. the PSG (brayan's mum, jon and michele's mum and the triplet's mum) cooked lunch for us today. the school will be providing a cap for each of us to be worn when we're doing formations at the field during afternoon. mdm shanti makes it a must for the band to perform last for chinese new year celebration. and etc. thank you, we really do appreciate it alot.

it feels good that many people are supporting you, don't you think so. and it's also somewhat a motivation for us to get gold with honours medal as we do not want to disappoint them who have given us so much. thus, people, don't give up, give your best, showcase what we can do.

signing off.

2010-01-31T23:24:00.005+08:00

Yes, we've covered movement 2 today!

finished one movement in one day!

i hope we can perform for sports day. =D

i agree with charlotte that this '=D' is dumb, but at the same time it's cute. HAHA.

and 'c:' eye-to-eye smiley face is also very cute. HAHA.

err, it's been about two years that i started blogging. but it's just my 86th post. HAHAHA. yeah, i know it's funny, im also laughing at myself ._.

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signing off.

c.

2010-01-25T21:45:00.006+08:00

25th day of the year, which means:

340 days more to a new year.
333 more days to Christmas.
66 days more to my 15th birthday. (minus 1 and it's the countdown for jane's birthday)
19 days more to chinese new year and valentines day. (nothing special)
99 more days to mid-year exams.
272 more days to 'o' level written examination.
74 more days to syf and the graduation of the sec 4s.

it's an endless countdown list.

going to school seems to be an irritant somehow. it irritates me. when the teachers don't come which means we don't learn anything. when the teachers totally don't teach anything, they just simply give us notes which is exactly the same as what is in the textbook and they just ask us to fill the blanks without giving any explanation about the topic. when the teachers promise us anything and everything but never keep them. when the teachers have wrong perspective of us, think very negatively without knowing what's actually happening. when the teachers can't catch our attention and they do nothing about it and just carry on with their own stuff. etc. i know it's all complaints but it's true, it is happening. this isn't what i expected.

wait, i also admit that students don't always pay attention, even sleep in class, don't do assignments, hand in homework late, blablablabla. it's saddening and ironic. both sides make mistakes and are at fault.

some teachers really deserve the respect from us. when they fatigue themselves just to prepare things to teach us and teach them well. they care for us. like what last time my primary school taught me: in school, teachers are your parents. i know that i can't expect every teacher to be very caring, good in teaching(which they are supposed to be), understanding and thoughtful cos i am also not as good as what and how they expect me to be at all times. well, no one's perfect, everyone makes mistake.

i won't let this get under my skin. i need to focus. even if i don't understand what the teacher's teaching, i can always ask or learn it myself. (:

another day

2010-01-20T22:19:00.003+08:00

God, thank you for still giving me the chance to wake up from the darkest night, breathe in the fresh morning air and realize how blessed i am.

everything that you plan in our lives, it all has beautiful and meaningful outcome.

what if..

2010-01-18T23:08:00.005+08:00

the sun will eventually shine after the darkness, even if the clouds are covering it.

i feel down these days. disappointments in myself once again crushed me into pieces. i'm not doing enough?

little problems kill. that quote is really true.

what i need now is a hug, an ice cream and that shine.

enlightened

2010-01-10T22:27:00.005+08:00

hello.

this week's been busy. school ends very late everyday, and teachers give us lots of homework. now, i taste what it likes to be a sec 3. on the first day of school, i didn't feel like a sec 3 nor upper sec. as days passed, it began to change. different. yeah, much difference. i've started to get the picture of what this year will be like. less time to pig. HAHA. do my best to achieve what i want. believe in myself.

ytd was CCA carnival. it went very well. pymb, i'm proud of you, we can do it together.

nights. see you in lalaland, level 999999999.

can a turtle be pregnant?

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dearest papi,

thank you for all your encouragement, support and love for me. what you said to me meant a lot. Although it was a long, serious conversation and we're just talking about the same thing, you kept asking the same question, it was an eye-opener and a 'wake up call' for me. it made me realise how much i've lost and wasted, it's way too ironic. From now on, i'm trying to improve myself, to be a better daughter and better person.

dad, you're now much much busier. you've always been very understanding when i'm busy with all my own stuff, and now it's my turn. i know it's all for us. i also understand we've to cancel our plans cos of your meetings and business plans. i hope you don't get yourself too tired and stressed up. rest more, don't get sick also ah, cos later mami will get worried and must take care of you. i'll do my best to make you proud cos i've always been proud of you, too.

nia sayang papi

2010-01-02T20:41:00.006+08:00

Sebelumnya tak ada yang mampu
Mengajakku untuk bertahan
Di kala sedih

Sebelumnya ku ikat hatiku
Hanya untuk aku seorang
Sekarang kau di sini hilang rasanya
Semua bimbang tangis kesepian

Reff:
Kau buat aku bertanya
Kau buat aku mencari
Tentang rasa ini
Aku tak mengerti
Akankah sama jadinya
Bila bukan kamu
Lalu senyummu menyadarkanku
Kau cinta pertama dan terakhirku

Sebelumnya tak mudah bagiku
Tertawa sendiri di kehidupan
Yang kelam ini

Sebelumnya rasanya tak perlu
Membagi kisahku saat ada yang mengerti
Sekarang kau di sini hilang rasanya
Semua bimbang tangis kesepian

Repeat Reff

Bila suatu saat kau harus pergi
Jangan paksa aku ‘tuk cari yang lebih baik
Karena senyummu menyadarkanku
Kaulah cinta pertama dan terakhirku

Repeat Reff

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2010

a new year, a new beginning.

2009 had been a long learning journey, i learnt many things.

i've thought what i want and have to achieve this year ahead.

somehow, today i woke up with the spirit. someone inside me keeps telling me that i can do it, though i dread this year. yeah, i realised i need to believe in myself that i can do it. Like what mr poh said, it's all in the mind. don't do things half-heartedly, give your best in everything you do.

i realize how good God is. I feel bad when i realize somehow i've forgotten Him, but He's still there for me, He's waiting for me to come and talk Him. He knows and understands me better than i and anyone else do, He knows what i'm doing, thinking, feeling, hoping and wanting. i just wanna thank Him.

Dear God, i thank You for everything, thank You for Your everlasting love, never ending blessings, for always being there for me and You never forget me. Thank You for letting me breathe and live another day, today. Thank You for forgiving me for every sin i did despite all those wounds i caused in Your heart. i'm sorry that i often hurt You. Even though i can't give anything to You to express my gratitude cos everything i have is from You, i can thank You by not forgetting You and always do what You want me to do, and also always love You.

vania,

one of Your beloved and blessed children ♥

2009-12-25T14:46:00.003+08:00

hello miscellaneous speaking here again! :D

well it's christmas and on behalf of 'went back to indon girl'

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

thus this leads me to tell you that vania have spent 13 days in indon and she'll be back in 2 days time.

what she do everyday? the same gimmick as usual: EAT!

hahahaha, well of course she did many things like going to many places

and spending alot of time with her family.

well, yesterday it was 'play with water day'

and she also learnt how to drive, that means all of you in bedok south,

if you're late for school, you know who to find. :D

then there'll be diving either later or tomorrow.

sounds damn fun la. unlike us, haiyo.

anyway im still waiting for my blue cookies.

hahahahaha... im waiting!

and vania will catch a shark for me too! :D

oooh! excited (faking the excitement) HAHA.

well you guys enjoy your christmas.

2009-12-15T16:27:00.002+08:00

HI! miscellaneous speaking here again! :D

VANIA AZALIA is in Bandung now.

she say she likes the new changes besides her room colour

haha.. she loves her living room alot.

i help you ask her to bring back her whole living room. want?

hahaha, then got the big mirror can see yourself 24/7.

from what i hear she's having alot of fun

and she's so happy there with papi and mami

honestly speaking, it's really boring here in singapore.

vania pangseh us hor?

next time we all also go back our own country.

eh wait, we got no country. ):

OKAY LA! HAIYO...

then that one the country problem la. tsktsktsk.

okay la byebye.

vania will update when she's back.

2009-12-10T00:15:00.005+08:00

; me, so cute la!

; 2nd sis, boyish!

; 1st sis, HAHAHAH! "i'm so cute!"

; see, they bully me.

; mum! (i don't have 'old' picture of hers with me now)

; my cool dad!

; ah ma!

this is what i call my family (:

2009-12-09T00:38:00.001+08:00

15 more days (:

i was thinking to make blue cookies for christmas present, cos it somewhat related to cookie monster. HAHAH! i wonder how it'll look like.. but i'll have my mum and my sisters to help me out to bake it. but come to think of it, my sisters might ruin it! OH NO! HAHAHA :X never mind, let see how it goes.

today was YOG performance. it was kinda screwed up at first. but we caught up, so i can say it was quite well done. GOOD JOB, EVERYBODY! :D

after that went for dinner at KFC with many people (: fun eh, shoot ice! ohya, not forgetting our new vocab for today; small bowls! HAHAHA! then went home, a pain journey. my hair got abused?! and you still have the guts to lie to me that you forgot bring your EC. tsktsktsktsk. never mind, bryan, you are forgiven. LOL! HAHAHA!

charlotte and joselyn moved to pit percussion for outdoor. D:

and xiao rong has not been coming for band for quite long, we don't know what happened and why. miss her somehow.

someone told me something unexpected and unwanted that made me feel very sad and disappointed and lost. i din realise it, but i also don't know whether it's wrong. i'm in a very difficult position, i have things that i need to make sure of. i'll think about it and see what i can do to make things better. tell me what goes wrong, otherwise i won't know what the problem relies on.

this week is another packed and loaded one. :D

; field painting, stock-check, another 2 band practices and shop things for mum.

fyi, i'll be going back to indo on 13th dec, sunday. it's like 4 more days? so fast! for some reasons, i don't want to go back that fast. but more reasons make me can't wait. :]

i've been thinking of what i wanna do in indo. cut hair, trip to bali and somewhere else, go shopping, bbq at home, going to market to buy things with my mum, sleep over at grandma's and cousin's place, visit primary school to meet old friends and teachers, make cookies, christmas eve outing, cook with my mum, work for dad, go for morning walk which will end up to be eating and not walking, watch some tv show which is like die die must watch for my dad and mum, buy sweets for my dad's workers, ride motorcycle, learn to drive, keep talking to my dad when he's driving, scare my mum with lizards *evil smiles*, big family gathering, see stars at night from my 4th floor house, water my mum's little garden from the 4th floor while you can make some fake rain, buy groceries with family at carefour where i can just take anything and everything and just put it inside the trolley, wake up freezing, go to mountain at night, go fishing at fish farm, play catching with my second sis around the house shouting here and there till mum become pissed off, play some very childish stuff with nieces and nephews and not forgetting to carry them, stay overnight at mountain, go cycling with dad, buy breakfast with mum.....

oh gosh, my list is yet finished, there are like manymanymany things i wanna do, oh gosh. is there enough time?

2009-12-06T12:33:00.002+08:00

being scared, i've always been scared for everything. i dont know whether it's because i don't believe in myself or what.

when i start to think forward, the feeling of being scared is always present.

if it'll be like this, how? if like that, how?

it's always like that.

but i want to try, i really do want. so please just believe in me, cos i'll believe in myself. i'll overcome all those fears which will make me and you down cos we can't get what we and i want if i continue like this.

after reading atikah's blog, i realized that the seniors are graduating in 19 weeks' time. OMG, time flies that fast? they've been with us, sharing all the joy and sadness, going through thick and thin together, giving us advice and guidance, they've been great friends and seniors. i just can't imagine when they are gone. well, life still must go on. i'll give my all and do my best. no words can express how much i want to thank them. i'll miss you all. i wonder how many of you will come back for band to visit us. hah. ):

i know we still have a long long way to go. so jia you, we all can do it. bring the glory to the band.

pain is temporary, glory is forever~

today, went to church, sang christmas songs. it's really nice feeling. christmas is around the corner!! I'M SO SO SO SO EXCITED LA! and someone's giving me something, making me more more more more excited. HAHAHAHAHA! i've always loved christmas. it's warm, peaceful, joyful and all the good and nice feeling that you cant imagine, it just can't be expressed in words. indescribable. im so loving it. 19 more days!

HAPPY ADVANCED 2009th BIRTHDAY, JESUS!

ILOVEYOU (:

2009-12-04T21:32:00.002+08:00

;band

;teachers, committees and SLs

;happy friends!

hello hello! (:

today, went to singapore sports school for YOG rehearsal.

it was not bad, but there's still room for improvement though.

i know it's been tiring, but we all can do it together right.

this is our chance to showcase what we can do!

have the pride!

please do not let the school, the teachers, mr poh, the seniors and yourself down, okay!

i'm really grateful for those who've been regular for band. we really appreciate it. although it seems to be a small thing but it is not.

today, band practice is LOUD and fun. fyi, now there are 4 piccolos. but i can say that playing piccolo is fun! hehehe..

practiced outdoor songs, but mainly is 'at the end of the day'.

very very nice song (:

there are plenty of things in my head queuing up to go inside my brain to be consulted. i've been quite quiet nowadays, but i enjoy the silence though.

2009-11-30T23:19:00.003+08:00

HELLO!
it's been a super duper busy holidays, seriously. but sometimes, im just simply stuck at home, rotting. LOL?
(CAPS LOCK: ON)
DUE TO SOME REASONS, MY CAPS IS ON.
HAHAHAHA
QUITE FUN, EH?
BUT IT SEEMS LIKE I'M MAD AT SOMEONE AND SCOLDING HIM/HER WITH THIS ON-CAPSLOCK.
HHAHAHAHA
OKAY WHATEVER
(CAPS LOCK: OFF)

as usual, many things happened.
making decisions and speaking up are not easy at all, seriously. (it has made me to have more white hair! T.T jianhao just plucked one today)
back to topic.
at times, i feel very lost, totally lost. but i tried to think and make up my mind and make the decisions. although you don't know whether it's right, at least you know you try. but still, right decisions are important.
responsibility, a word that always comes into my mind whenever i've to make decisions.

bye.

2009-11-26T23:34:00.002+08:00

hello, the miscellaneous speaking here:

today vania rot at home.
so sad hor? yeah, i know.
she say's that without band she will die or boredom.
i totally agree with that, any ordinary band member would say so too.
anyway, vania adores the BLCAKS.
they rock! they rock like any blacks would absorb heat in the sun.
(fyi, that was nonsense.. HAHAHA!)
vania, should be offline now and i ran out of topics to type.
that is because im not vania.
hopefully tomorrow would be a much better day than today.
and happy hari raya haji to atikah and all you malays out there.
HAHAHA!! goodbye.
:D

i like chinese~

2009-11-24T23:48:00.000+08:00

2009-11-19T23:03:00.002+08:00

The miscellaneous speaking here:

well the post below is obviously copied.

vania, naughty girl, not, not.

hahahahahahaha okay don't know what to write already.

THE UPGRADE COMING BACK TOMORROW!

she never bathe for 5 days.

so smelly, everybody must remember to stay away from her.

hahaha.

2009-11-19T22:53:00.001+08:00

hello, haven't been blogging
this is due to a very busy week.
ROD is in 2 days time. and im very excited
as well as wanting it to finish asap.
past few days have been very hectic.
everyday is the same, go to school to do band stuff then go home
the next day same also, and this continued for 2 weeks excluding weekends.
yesterday was at wahjing's to do the tribute to seniors video. i love it alot.
and the whole of today felt reallyreally tired. coz sleep very late
but yeah, just continue to do things as usual, can't possibly dwell in tiredness forever. (:
okay i don't know what to blog about already
very tired now.
maybe i should go sleep soon.

-Jianhao

2009-11-16T23:49:00.002+08:00

days have been fulfilled with a lot of things.

everyday is a busy day.

but i kinda enjoy it though.

it's been ALL about BAND!

i'm LOVIN' it!

ATIKAH aka 'UPGRADE!',

i miss you!!!!! today's so odd without you ._. so will this week be.
(you must be feeling touched when you read this, atikah!)

saddened

2009-11-09T01:47:00.004+08:00

im still awake at this time?
no, i just woke up.
my phone is ill (there's a problem, i cant open my inbox), so ytd i restarted it and i didn't know that the time and date is reset. when i woke up, i took my phone to check the time, i saw 05:46 am. and i believed that it's really 05:46 am. since i had nothing to do so i decided to go and bath, i took all my things and went back to my room.
i saw my sis's phone, then looked at the time, 00:03 am. i was like.. speechless.
and now, i cant sleep, dont know why. no mood to do anything. my mind is messed up. headache. tired. excited about finishing the banner tmr, err, no, today. energetic to practice for YOG performance. sad about my phone. feeling kinda lost.

anyone, can lend me a 'healthy' phone?

2009-09-18T22:37:00.001+08:00

im doing my best

2009-09-09T00:01:00.005+08:00

it's 00.33 am
is this even called holidays? precisely not.
i shouldn't have asked my parents to come during this sept holidays.
hais.

i just realised that i've not been doing much to help.
i should have taken more initiatives.
oh well, since i know that i was wrong, i should correct myself, try not to repeat it and change to the better.

i shall learn to manage time well, too.
manage time for school, homework, band, family, friends, and especially God.
i just feel very guilty not to pray everyday, forgetting to say grace before eating, etc.

there're so many things that i need to learn, correct and change.
i must do this fast.
but i also still need help, i still can't do everything on my own.
i need guidance and advices.

many things have changed.
don't know whether it's to the better or worse. but well, everything has its advantages and disadvantages.
i hope i'll get used to this soon.

i really dont hate you, i dont even dislike you.
you are like a good friend to me. but i dont know why you got it wrong.
i dont want this to continue, so can we talk it over?
i really am upset over this, and disappointed in myself

feeling so disappointed in myself for not being so helpful, for being so blur, for being useles and careless. i'll try my best to be better.
everything seems to make me to feel disappointed in myself.
makes me realize that i need to be better, makes me realize that i can be better
and i wanna be better, i can do better.

you rock!

2009-08-23T00:08:00.009+08:00

ryan is the best looking guy in the whole wide world!
jun is hunky!
marcus is cute and adorable!
brayan rocks!
linda rocks!
adrain rocks!
ARC AND ABC!
:D

i wanna make people happy like how i make myself happy everyday,
but sometimes i just fail to make it happen.

not again

2009-08-16T21:22:00.004+08:00

i accidentally hit the toilet door at school on friday.
blah.
what a misfortune.

in order to get taller faster, i've started drinking milk and eating vitamins everyday .
so for someone, *grins* watch out! cos i might be as tall as you overnight.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA :D

milk is also good for teeth. (prevent from breaking another tooth)
*touchwood*
i would go berserk if i were to lose another tooth.
i would cry seven days seven nights non stop.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
breaking another tooth? i swear it's not gonna happen again.
the first thing i would save if i were to hit a wall or whatever is my teeth!
ok, let's stop talking about breaking teeth, it's such a trauma for me.

actually or in fact, being short merely is a natural thing that we cannot change nor control.
so why do you feel insulted when other people call you short?
it's just my opinion. no offense. :/

common test begins tomorrow. but i don't know why, i don't feel tense.
but no matter what, i still need to study.
STOP SLACKING!
i must not fail any subject. er wait, chinese is exceptional. :x

i guess i just need some self-encouragement.
yeah.

shall end here
^^v

.

2009-08-16T17:45:00.003+08:00

defiant people end up being solitary people

:D

2009-08-15T22:03:00.002+08:00

i wanna look back and smile,
leave no room for regrets.

it's just the beginning of everything

2009-08-14T21:22:00.017+08:00

i didn't know that life could get this complicated, confusing and difficult.
i was just too naive to know what life is. i was not thoughtful enough.
but i can't be an ignorant forever, i need to start learn many new things though it's not easy.
i need to change as people are watching over me.
by going through all this, perhaps i'll be a much better person.
managing my time, handling different types of people, understanding people and things better, controlling myself, etc.
i can say that it's too sudden, but sooner or later i would still have to learn these.
so i shall just hang on there, give my best in everything i do and try not to make any mistake.
i wish we can make leaders that can lead everyone to glory.
i know we all can.

everyday is like a new chapter of my life. book of my life.
i open it, flip through the pages and read; laughing, smiling, crying, regretting over things that have happenned, i've done. i wish i could erase some and rewrite it, but it's just impossible. what i can do is just to draw a big smiley face on every page and every chapter, write new better stories to be red.

you know it

2009-08-12T21:22:00.004+08:00

i still have a long way to go. long journey to reach there.
indeed we all have.

jia you!

lilblee!

2009-08-11T19:27:00.001+08:00

HALO - ALO!

blablablah. can't update photos, too bad then.
never mind.
at least i updated!
:D
bubye!

oh, i got a new friend today. a monster!

and i think i'm already cured (:

2009-07-30T22:33:00.006+08:00

HALO, WORLD!
there's something wrong with the blogger again, i guess.
sheesh D:

i'm affected by alonzo's disease, being bored all the time.
bored, bored, bored.
i hope to get cured soon
D:

ok, shall post about today then.
went to kfc after school with maira, andrew, sheryl and adrian.
then met with alonzo, who 'pierced' his ear, at the mrt.
(i pierced his ear with my prefect badge! hahahaha! jk)
went back to school. found nothing entertaining there, so the alonzo and i decided to go somewhere more entertaining. but the problem was that we didn't know where to go. =.=
we walked, walked and walked. then took 229 home, found things on his handphone. *grins* LOL :D
nothing la. hahahahaha :D

shall end here.

someone please cure me from this boredom disease!
alonzo, you should be responsible for this.
D:

2009-07-28T19:30:00.003+08:00

I RAWR!
:D

are we going on like this?

2009-07-26T20:30:00.004+08:00

201;

us;
racial harmony, 23 july
:D

hello, i'm alonzo fong ao yu aka AFAY. ;D
i am weird, lame and emo.
but i'm super and mighty! ;D
i'm an old owl.
usually, i spend forty minutes to choose what to wear.
i know i'm weird. ;D
and one more thing, i need to learn how to entertain myself cos i always get bored.

so today i:

woke up
did tuition work till 10, then went tuition
at 1 pm, went home. ate lunch
then tried to find toy soldiers for project, so asked umaira to help me find, but no hope =.=
actually i didn't even bother finding, but then i still asked kelvin to give me
then ate hor fun as dinner
then now lo.

i'm actually vania, still vania.
i don't wanna be emo, not even an old owl.
:p
hahaha
i'll post about other people next time.
:D

okay, people.
shall end here,

GOOD NIGHT!

love is incomprehensible, a song is not enough to portray it.

2009-07-24T20:55:00.001+08:00

HALO, WORLD!

there's a problem with blogger recently
D:
so troublesome.

so many things happened, but i'm not going to write them all here. tired.
there's band today, it's not tiring, just yet. hahaha. but as i said many things happened. just too many. all became so complicated, confusing, indecisive, pressurizing. but i know there are good reasons behind all these. oh, well, things happen for reasons. it's right, this and that look so unreasonable, but you might just not know everything. i'm just thinking, am i right to do this and that? i'm afraid that i'm hurting other people.

we decide our own destiny.

2009-07-19T21:37:00.008+08:00

isn't he so cute?!
oh, this sucks.
he's killing me.

i've been so obsessed with hiro mizushima.
but i just simply can't get over it.
he's just too cute!
okay, vania. stop it.
i'll find a better one cos hiro mizushima's taken. sheesh. LOL!

good bye anti-morning-assembly, halo late-comers!
yes, my patrolling duty has changed to late-coming duty.
thanks to some shallow girl, who wants me to entertain her every monday morning. syaf, you ought to repay me for being your entertainer and a loyal friend who will always be ready to go to toilet with you.
:D
i don't to know whether to say it good or bad, but my duty is only on mondays.
sheesh. but never mind.
:X

band practice starts tomorrow. i don't know whether i missed it or i didn't, but i look forward to it. we've wasted too much time dued to swine flu. precious time.

just one question before i end this post,
what will you do if you know that the day after tomorrow you'll die?
think about it.
but, something very wrong about that question is that you'll never know when you'll die. so treasure every minutes in your life.

shall end here.

somehow, somewhere, sometime, we'll happen to know things.
but the only thing that you don't and won't know is that how, where and when will you know.

2009-07-18T17:49:00.006+08:00

i just feel kinda better suddenly, not because of anybody nor anything.
i thought, why do i waste my precious time to feel sad or even to cry?
i'm really alright, back to myself.
sotong me.
sheesh.
:D

a sad, emotional girl is totally not me.
may be, i'll become one when some serious situation crops out.
who knows? God knows.
:D

2009-07-18T17:39:00.005+08:00

sorry.
i realised that it's all my fault.
everything.
i'd been very selfish.
feeling guilty, disappointed in myself, sad. yes, i must be.

after a long time, i feel like crying now.
but i have nobody.
nobody to lend me his/her shoulder.

2009-07-17T20:39:00.004+08:00

playing that thing in that way is real fun, i swear!
*clap*
you can die of feeling mad after playing this
right, umaira?
:D

2009-07-17T18:04:00.005+08:00

2009-07-16T21:18:00.001+08:00

have you ever sincerely wished to give helping hands for people who really needed them?

i wanna be someone who can help people around me.
should i be a firefighter? i don't think so. hehee.
or may be a road sweeper, who helps to keep the environment clean. but that's out of the question.
i've thought about being a psychologist. it's the best choice that i could think of. beside that i can help others, i can understand more about myself. it's very interesting to learn about people's different characters, and how you can socialize better with people. isn't it very useful and helpful? :D

i feel very clumsy nowadays, don't know why. even a little thing can affect me a lot.
sheesh.
but i realised that i can laugh over little things, too. i find everything is very fun and exciting. i'll be like," ohmygawd, it's so fun! *clap*"
:D

signing off!
:D
what a day

2009-07-15T21:52:00.004+08:00

eating supper is a very important thing to do before you end your day :D

HALO! or should i say HELLO?
okay, both will do.
whatever.

today is a great day, looking for somebody around school.
is fun :D

okay, what should i write now?
*silence*
.....

i admitted that i'm a sotong D: i just knew that sotong is blur, not some kind of stupid. thank you, afay aka alonzofongaoyu for telling me what sotong means. and he's calling me blur now. sheesh.
but never mind.

i've been taking bad remarks from people as compliment, for example,

alonzo ; says:
HEY SOTONG! (:
i am(: says:
D:
alonzo ; says:
?
why suddenly the D:
i am(: says:
cos of the sotong
D:
may be i should take it as compliment
correction : thanks for calling me 'sotong'
:D

but never mind. as long as it is not very serious remark.

signing off!

today's supper : apple!

ms huda : if you want to know the art of toilet, come to school late for six times.
me : hahahahaha
( i guess i'm the only one who heard it, cos the class didn't laugh)
this means i have very good ears. :D

2009-07-14T16:11:00.003+08:00

that question? honestly, i don't know how to answer it. i never put my mind into it as there are still many things that i need to think of. it's just too sudden to give you the answer right away. you asked me out of the blue.

may be it is true that i kinda don't care him cos i thought that it's fine.

i don't know. i need time to think.

2009-07-14T15:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JONATHAN!

2009-07-13T22:53:00.003+08:00

mum, dad, i want a puppy!

HELLO-ELLO-YELLOW, WORLD!

yes, if you notice, i changed my blogskin. quite nice, huh? :D i like it! thank you, meire (that's what i usually call umaira). i like the songs, too. there's one indonesian song, i like it! the lyrics are indirectly saying that guys are jerk. hahaha :D

i have lots to say, but since it's already 11 o'clock, i'll continue tomorrow.

BYE!

vaniaaa

2009-07-13T21:26:00.005+08:00

hello..umaira here..since vania can't update or more likely use her comp..im kind enough to update for her so that her dear readers wont be disappointed..well heres wat she did for today...

- she met tan hui at the bus stop..then they walk to school..reach homeroom..
-she did maths if im not wrong..well at the same time ate lolipop that tan hui gave..
-then d&t combined classes.. free period for mr teo class
-eng..went through worksheets..
- recess-ate lor mee isit? i think la..
- maths - did quiz
- eng again...
- p.e - took height and weight plus overcome the obstacles i think..
- mt - dunno what happen[i think tan hui in vania's class?]

after that...went to eat lunch.. - chocolate iceblend with tom yam..oh ya..she got ferrero rocher from alonzo..and he will be giving her 3 per week{: good..and followed me go TM{: and yeah went home after that...oh ya..im putting in songs in ur mp4 vania{: kay thats all bye bye!

wuahahahaha!

2009-06-27T21:28:00.008+08:00

i guess this shows how much i enjoy myself when eating, nothing is wasted! food is precious.

mom and dad

dad

me and mom

me after cutting my hair

me and cousins

************

hey, i'm back!
hahahaha! :D
i'm still fine and normal, and still been doing what normal people do : breath, eat, drink, sleep, bath, blink, move, etc.
hehehe :p

i cut my hair during holidays, it's quite short.
enjoyed myself very much during holidays (:

when i'm back to singapore, don't know why, home become so peaceful and better; not much quarrel, laugh over silly things we do and when we get scolded by each other, and read bible together every morning, it's just feel so different, awkward. haha. but it's totally fine, i like it, but not when they laugh over something i do wrong ): but i enjoy laughing over silly things they do.
you know what ( of course you don't know but nvm ) we wanted to bath our hamham when we ourselves don't dare to touch it. but cos our hamham had not have a bath for 3 weeks and it stinked so we decided to bath our pitiful hamham. we prepared a pail of water and the special shampoo to bath it. while my sis was holding to it and bathing it, it suddenly move. of course she was like shocked and accidentally threw it, and unfortunately it landed on the pail which is full of water. we were like screaming and jumping instead of saving it. i mean it's like, erm.. don't know how to explain the feeling, we were like scared, shocked, thinking of it dying inside the pale, excited, not knowing what to do, mad, not able to think anything else. indescribable. and finally we exit from our world and entered the real world, realising that our hamham was dying. so my sis took a towel and took it out, luckily it's not dead yet, and so we continued laughing. this is how silly we are.
haiya, i think that our hamham is very pitiful to have owners like us. hahaha. you should understand that we are just not meant to have pets, but dogs are exceptional. but my parents keep refusing to have dog, so sad. D: hahahaha :D

i need not come to school on mon, tues, and wed cos i have LOA. wuahahaha :D

i've prepared two boxes of face masks to prevent swine flu. wuahahaha. just in case (:

many things happened during this june holidays.

school is reopening, people! buck up! and press on! you will achieve what you deserve eventually, so don't make yourself regret (:

2009-06-11T16:23:00.004+08:00

HEY WORLD!
im totally BORED and i have no idea why the heck am i updating for vania? LOLs..cause im bored..anyways Umaira's here..to post about something.. but dont know wad to post right now...hmm okay lets start..
on the 9th June 2009[vania take note]
i and syafiqah planned to sent vania off to the airport..we actualli woke up late and we thought that vania's flight was at 9am ..we sort of rush there & since vania's prepaid low..i sms her sis number..luckily i rmbered and we got to noe her flight was 2.15pm=.= but nonetheless..i and syaf.. walk around...dilly dally..and yeah vania came like around 11+...we walk around again and met wif her sis..and then we ate at popeye..spelled like tat? oh vania blanja us manxzc[copy tan hui] haha..cuz u noe we came earlier and waited for her..so yeah...and then like around 1+ we went home..i reached home at 3.. cause we were like leaving around 1.45 [: so yeah thats all..to tan hui.. sadd la u nvr come...must come horr when want to send her again..[: okays thats all BYE![:

2009-06-10T10:31:00.002+08:00

HelloYello!

This is Vania's 84th post and, Tanhui:) is helping her blog!

Yeahyeah, she went back to Indonesia, more precise, Bandung (?)

She'll be back in the 4th week of holidays i think ^^

I'm going to upload Vania's unglam picture soon >:D

So, stay tuned! :DD

Tanhui:B

2009-06-05T23:04:00.007+08:00

okay, fine.
since i can't get to sleep, i'll post a post that is longer that 20 words. :D
it seems like when you are tired you gain more energy, or may be not.
but why can't i sleep?
may be it's because i don't want to sleep.
it's true that you can control everything in your body by thinking, you rule your body.
that's what i realised.
it's like when you think that you think you can do it, you can, but of course you need to something to make it happen.

sometimes i have many things to say and talk about, but i just can't bring it out.
i even prepare what i wanna talk about sometimes, so that i won't just keep quiet. but yeah, i just can't talk anything when it's face-to-face. i get quite upset when this happens. i want to understand people and also want people to understand me, but sometimes they just get misunderstood. i can talk a lot when i feel very comfortable with the person, but when i don't talk to you it doesn't always mean that i don't feel comfortable with you. it's just complicated. :[
everyone has their own complicated things that they just can't help it and explain it.

i get upset when i can't lend my shoulders to those who need to cry on.
i get upset when i can't be there for those who needs my help.
i get upset when i can't do anything for the ones i love.
i know it's all about i want or i don't want, not i can or i can't
i know i can do everything if i want to.
so from now on, i will try to change for the better.
if you think i can help you, please tell me your problems, talk to me, i'll do all what i can do.
i don't want to be just a bystander, i would feel so useless and helpless if i become one.

so now, i'm going to give a command to my body to stop blogging and go sleep.
i control my thoughts, my thoughts control my brain and my brain controls my body. that's how it works. :D

2009-06-05T22:44:00.006+08:00

I AM TOO TIRED TO WRITE MORE THAN TWENTY WORDS HERE!
HAHA!

at least i updated okay :D

2009-06-03T09:20:00.004+08:00

hey, world!

i've been updating my blog recently, since i'm so free. haha! :D
oh ya, i have a new pet. yeah, it's hamster. so tanhui and umaira will come to my house later to see it.

being alone at home is not a very good thing,
but if you can entertain and take care of yourself, you'll be fine.
that's why i'm still fine.
if you get what i mean.

going back to indo in 6 days' time. or earlier, i guess. cos my parents want me to come home faster. so i'm trying to change my flight ticket's departure date earlier, may be i'll merely need to pay more money. =.= but mom said it's alright to pay more money if i can get home faster, then i said ,"okay! i'll try."

will be going to suntec and little india with my sister today.
__________________________________

i still don't know how to make things right, or may be i should just leave it like that.
no! i'll keep thinking of the way out. if only i have a time machine.
haaah.
jiayou!:D
things happen for reasons.

tooth

2009-06-02T12:25:00.000+08:00

somehow, i miss my real tooth.
and miss those tough, crazy and stupid times when my tooth was only half

awkward.
HAHA!
:D

ironic

2009-06-02T09:26:00.000+08:00

urgh, urgh, urgh!

feeling very miserable -.-

finding something to motivate myself, and thinking of something to make things right.
haah.

dead blog updated!

2009-06-01T08:48:00.000+08:00

(overdued pics)

hey, world! :D

Nothing’s better than the wind to your back, the sun in front of you, and your friends beside you

Aaron Douglas Trimble

best of luck on the sex change?

2009-05-10T16:12:00.000+08:00

Dear Alonzo,
I don't really know how to tell you this, our romance is over. I think I realized it when I tripped on peanut butter In your closet and I saw you pour syrup on
my ‘My Little Pony’ collection. I'm sure you're High enough to understand that you need a sex-change. I'm returning your your old New Kids on the Block blanket to you, but I'll keep your criminal record as a memory.You should also know that I love your sweet, sweet ass and you should stop picking your nose.
Go drown yourself,
Vania.

thanks jianhao (:
i saw this on your blog.

alonzo, you'd better read this! {:
HAHA!

oh, ya
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! :D

idiots!

2009-05-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

fakhrina, the act-cute girl!

she's already dumb, what can i say..

idiot, horny!

Lucille?

what's with the finger?

pathetic sister=.= haha

moron?

hopeless and idiot

umaira, you really look like one

helpless linda? she's alone at the interchange waiting for her sis

[my mighty left hand!]

made a few people felt idiotic today!

included myself?

NO!

2009-05-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

hey, world!{:

world is gonna end soon!
i just can't imagine how we'll go through it.
frightening.
but my question is why people are so scared to die?
i mean if it's time for them to die, they will die although they don't want to.
may be it's because i don't know what they feel and think.
and about the 2012 doomsday, is that true?

back to life,

i was supposed to jog this morning, but i woke up late ]: so it's postponed to tomorrow.
i ate too much today.
regret. HAHA:D
but nevermind, it's better than eating nothing.

meeting amirul and raimov tomorrow, going to STUDY!
YAY!
i hope we'll able to study tommorow and not 'study'.
:B

FYI : i'm going back to indonesia on 9th june and will be back on 26th. i've already booked the tickets so it's confirmed(:

sis misses bro

2009-05-01T00:12:00.000+08:00

i miss Jonathan very badly!D:

:X

2009-04-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

hi, dead blog(:

okay, back to life.

i feel so tired, sad, disappointed, guilty, ignored.
i guess it partly is my bad D:
i'm tired of this, i don't want and don't like to feel like this.
we can't go on like this.

a huge "thank you" for tanhui, umaira and syaf.
for being there for me when i'm down.
sorry for being so irritating at times(:
i hope you won't leave me because i know you all won't. hahas!:B
you all love me so much, then how would you all leave me, right?!
hehe..
and a big big "thank you" for people who has been there for me, has helped me, do care for me.
not forgetting the dentist who has fixed my tooth back! thanks alot! hahas:D
for mom and dad, i give you a super duper giant "thank you"

IGNORANT : don't know, don't care!

i have face

2009-04-11T18:53:00.000+08:00

SILVER:)

i expected gold, but maybe we deserved silver this year though i think we did very well.
but i'm happy with the result.
good job everyone(:

on thursday, went dentist to do my root canal.
it's scary though i don't know what the dentist did.
gonna get my new tooth next thursday hopefully:D

today, got prefects' investiture rehearsal.
quite tiring.
then went for lunch break, after that went back to school to count every chair in school-_-
but luckily, my saviour, mr rezal, called me and syaf to help him make something dead alive again. we're LIFE-SAVERS! haha:}
then went to mr rezal's homeroom, on the way shouted there shouted here suddenly...saw students' parents inside class room T.T paiseh!

went bedok inter, and i donated some money for charity! it feels good:D

I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see.
John Burroughs

hehe..

2009-04-06T21:32:00.000+08:00

hey, HO!!

im a 14-year-old girl now
and i broke my tooth
terrible 8}

i was running very fast and i looked back, and that's how it happened.
i didn't cry though i knew that by losing my tooth, life would be a bit harder for me.
i even laughed because i made 3 people vomited.
HAHA!(:
im going to fix or repair or crown or implant my tooth!
hope tooth fairy gonna pay it for me {:

so, yeah
1 more day to syf!
pymb can do it! jia you(:

Some of us do not have the ability to display emotions as easily as others. But does that make the feelings any less real?

we're waiting for you

2009-03-26T11:19:00.000+08:00

JONATHAN NICHOLAS SEET!

come back! why must you sleep so long?
we miss you very badly
can you wake up?
you've rested long enough
you are always the BEST brother for me
your sister here is waiting for you
i know you are trying hard to wake up

AKU CINTA KAU(:

i've reasons.

2009-03-19T18:15:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling so sad right now):
one word keep appearing in my mind, 'why?'
i only got myself to blame.

i'm sorry, forgive me.

you!

2009-03-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

22 more days to my birthday!

21 more days to jane's birthday!

12 more days to bryan's birthday!

thank jane for counting down my birthday(:

went home with joel and zhengde. talked about something{:
secret! *grins*
i keep thinking about something.
i'm tired of thinking, but i can't stop thinking. urgh. irritating.

=.=

2009-03-12T18:40:00.000+08:00

BLAH! BLAH! BLAH!

today, went to temple for IPW. The smell was just sooo nice. yeah, nice.
smelling other people's uniform so that i needed not to hold my breath for so long.
i smelled andrew's uniform, mumtaz's, tanhui's, syafiqah's, umaira's and others.
quite many, and i just realised it.
:}
i like my group except for someone who's just so irritating. urgh.

i'm supposed to be doing my chinese journal right now, but yanyu's just so kind that he wants to help me do it. thank you, yanyu(:

anyway, the sec 3s will be back tmr. YAY!

till then(:

la..La..LA!

2009-03-08T20:50:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAA!!

HeyHO!!
I'm back to make this bloody dead blog alive again.
haha!!
The fact is that this so called 'dead blog' is not really dead.
smile.

Feeling sooo happy without any reason.
hahas :}

I find myself as a liar.
Pretending to someone that nothing has happened, but something happened.
Feel so guilty in both ways, to tell or not to tell.
But it's not my responsibility, though.
It's been quite a long time.
:[
He's not really innocent though he's not really the one who decide.
he chose what he wanted to do.
we've tried to cheer him, encourage him, teach him, tell him what he's supposed to do.
but again he chose his own way.
:(
we're sorry.
we didn't want it neither.

nothing happens without any reason.

band was fun and wonderful ytd.:]
mr.poh said that flute section, which he thought was the weakest section, is actually the strongest section.
Flute section is not as weak and stupid as he think, ohkay!
WE'RE IMPROVING!
Better watch out!
HAHAHAHAA!!:D
Imagine if everyone plays flutes, no brasses, no saxes, no clarinets.
play high notes, running notes?!
NOISY!! HAHA!
i admit that holding long notes helps a lot.
It's tiring.

love PYMB!

pymb Pymb PYMB!!! YAY!!

till then..:]

Jokes, anyone?

2009-03-05T18:27:00.000+08:00

Angel's Food vs. Devil's Food

In the beginning, God created the Heavens and the Earth and populated the Earth with broccoli, cauliflower and spinach, green and yellow and red vegetables of all kinds, so Man and Woman would live long and healthy lives.

Then using God's great gifts, Satan created Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream and Krispy Creme Donuts. And Satan said, "You want chocolate with that?"

And Man said, "Yes!" and Woman said, "and as long as you're at it, add some sprinkles." And they gained 10 pounds. And Satan smiled.

And God created the healthful yogurt that Woman might keep the figure that Man found so fair. And Satan brought forth white flour from the wheat, and sugar from the cane and combined them. And Woman went from size 6 to size 14.

So God said, "Try my fresh green salad." And Satan presented Ranch Dressing, buttery croutons and garlic toast on the side. And Man and Woman unfastened their belts following the repast.

God then said, "I have sent you heart healthy vegetables and olive oil in which to cook them." And Satan brought forth deep fried fish and chicken-fried steak so big it needed its own platter. And Man gained more weight and his cholesterol went through the roof.

God then created a light, fluffy white cake, named it "Angel Food Cake," and said, "It is good." Satan then created chocolate cake and named it "Devil's Food."

God then brought forth running shoes so that His children might lose those extra pounds. And Satan gave cable TV with a remote control so Man would not have to toil changing the channels. And Man and Woman laughed and cried before the flickering blue light and gained pounds.

Then God brought forth the potato, naturally low in fat and brimming with nutrition. And Satan peeled off the healthful skin and sliced the starchy center into chips and deep-fried them. And Man gained pounds.

God then gave lean beef so that Man might consume fewer calories and still satisfy his appetite. And Satan created McDonald's and its 99-cent double cheeseburger. Then said, "You want fries with that?" And Man replied, "Yes! And super size them!" And Satan said, "It is good." And Man went into cardiac arrest.

God sighed and created quadruple bypass surgery.

Then Satan created HMOs.

Mama Needs A New Pair of Shoes

A young blonde was on vacation in the depths of Louisiana. She wanted a pair of genuine alligator shoes in the worst way, but was very reluctant to pay the high prices the local vendors were asking.

After becoming very frustrated with the "no haggle" attitude of one of the shopkeepers, the blonde shouted, "Maybe I'll just go out and catch my own alligator so I can get a pair of shoes at a reasonable price!"

The shopkeeper said, "By all means, be my guest. Maybe you'll luck out and catch yourself a big one!"

Determined, the blonde turned and headed for the swamps, set on catching herself an alligator. Later in the day, the shopkeeper is driving home, when he spots the young woman standing waist deep in the water, shotgun in hand. Just then, he sees a huge 9 foot alligator swimming quickly toward her.

She takes aim, kills the creature and with a great deal of effort hauls it on to the swamp bank. Lying nearby were several more of the dead creatures. The shopkeeper watches in amazement.

Just then the blonde flips the alligator on its back, and frustrated, shouts out, "Dang it, this one isn't wearing any shoes either!"

Laughs.

hyper!

2009-02-22T12:28:00.000+08:00

RANDOM!(:

-.-

Mirul and me:) we scare people, so be aware!

Malaysia trip!

Tantan and me(:

:D

Malaysia trip!

Random

I am HAPPY as always:D

(:

2009-02-19T22:39:00.000+08:00

I HATE BEING LIED!!
so enough for all your lies, BIG FAT LIARS!

HELLO people!
I'm back with more lively blogging.
HAHA:D

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
oh, i'm so late!
There're things that happened.
Which I've expected before. Like dugh?!
I can't talk much about that(:

Mdm Lim did'nt come today, so we got that flirter teacher again.
haha.

Next week is already common test. argh!
I'm sooo gonna fail chinese again -.-

Tantan, syaf ,maira and I went bubletea today.
Had sooo much fun:D
we talked, ate, joked, play!
They always make my days wonderful and colourful!
I admit that peace is not always with us but that makes a lesson for us to learn
Though we sometimes feel angry with each other:D
It does not mean that we are not meant to be best friends, but it teaches us how to be beyond than best friends.
and as for umaira, please don't feel that you are left behind, we are always beside you(:
I LOVE YOU, tantan, syafiqah, umaira!
Hope you all will read this[:

till then(:

i can take them back, for sure.

2009-02-07T21:29:00.000+08:00

It's been a year indeed
A BIG BIG sigh and whoa
don't know where start, don't know what to say.
clueless, i can say.

pain has already been a friend of mine.
smiles, laughter, happiness are being taken away from me.
I can take them back, can't i?

It hurts me alot
I've had enough.

They are all fake

this is LIFE, life goes on
trying to survive,huh?
time will tell us.

changes

2009-02-04T18:25:00.000+08:00

people make mistakes so they change

but some people change to make more mistake without realising it

This is what i've been thinking since last night..

It suddenly popped out inside my brain and i started thinking about it..

I just like to think about something so deeply..

But anyway,

there's cross country today..

and you know what?? I was in the 11th position..

Isn't that so amazing.. haha:D

Last year i was in the 50something position, and this year is 11th position!!!

I kept motivating myself, endured the pain and tireness, tried to win the competition, i think that was why i could achieve what i wanted(:

and congrats to CHARLOTTE!!

she was in the 2nd position.. What a good runner(:

There was supposed to be band practice today, but it was canceled because the school did not allow us to use the school..

I wanted to learn the new song, Ivanhoe..
haiyah-.-

my nokia phone is spoiled, so today my sis helped me buy a new phone..

So now my phone is same with charlotte..

The phone that is called 'common phone' by tanhui..HAHA:D

Sony Ericson W910i [brown]

this is my phone for now..

I changed my number too..

so and for those who need and want my number, ask me:)

and i will send messages too:]

If you realise, i changed my blogskin too..

haha:]

go to go!

BYE:)

SMILE!HAHA:D

BACK!

2009-01-25T17:13:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

I'm finally back..

you know why??

because i have nothing to do, bored..

1st sis is sleeping(after watch animal farm,haha), 2nd sis is out with her bf..

so..... I'm bored..

blogging by my new laptop

and, HAPPY NEW YEAR!! oh, I'm sooo late!!haha

I spend my days mostly in school and band..
It's getting near to SYF..
striving for GOLD medal:D

Lessons in school are getting more boring and boring..
It's kinda difficult for me to understand and remember what the teachers teach..
whoa..
Feeling abit stressed now,because of school..
I'm really really scared that i will not be able to cope..
well, we must think positive:)

anyway, joel said that he wants to buy me skinny jeans for my birthday..
haha:D

today:
went church, late because the clock at home is late for an hour, so i did'nt know that it's already 11am..haha..
then went to parkway, ate banmian:]nice! but there was a long queue-.-
went giant, bought apples, oranges, milk, jam..

I'm sooo going to rest now..
I had had really long and tiring days..

BYE:D

i miss mom and dad:[
mami, papi, nia kangen banget..
kemaren papi mami telpon, sbenernya abis itu nia nangis..
nia kangen..
nia makasih banget ama mami papi buat semua yang papi ama mami udah kasih buat nia..
makasih buat kasih sayang yang mami papi udah kasih ke nia..
nia bangga punya orang tua kaya mami papi..
nia janji nia ga bakal ngecewain kalian..
LOVE YOU:D

2009-01-13T20:07:00.000+08:00

Helloooooo!
TAN hui here, helping lazyyy Vania to blog:)
Hmms..
Vania has been elected as the class sci rep,
She's rather shy :3
Well, i owe her one meal by helping her to become sci rep,
But is not really my fault >.<
Grr..
(I hope Vania reads this)
And.. err.. Anybody wants to join girl guides?
intrested participants can come for the trail this friday:)

Thats all i have to say..
TAN hui :3

Troubled yesterday..

2008-11-23T14:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, went wif tan tan (tan hui) and maira to eat at swensens [?]

to celebrate Syafiqah's birthday, but unfortunately, she was sick and did not came..

So, we went to Changi Airport by cab and took the skytrain to terminal 2 and eat :D

nice nice.

I ate curry chiken baked rice i think :D

And then.. tan tan wanted to go to terminal 3, so we took skytrain there..

Nothing much though.

then i saw a man giving rides on Thomas the blue engine:D

So cuteee.

And then..

when i was about to check-in,

someone has to accompany me then i can board the airplane..

dammit.

waited and waited.. Still no one came. D:

So, i had to go home..

But i will go to indonesia today :D

Till then..

02.16am

2008-11-21T02:05:00.000+08:00

yo!!
I know that it's so early now,02.16am..
and i have'nt been sleeping..
because I made a wrong board!!
and I need to make the new one..
I wanted and tried to finish it by yesterday because I would not stop feeling uneasy when I think whether the board is done anot and If I give the work to raimov, I don't know whether he would finish it on time anot..
so I chose to do it by myself and finish it by yesterday..
and I really finished it already..
so tomorrow mr.poh can see it and give comments..:)
I really satisfied with the board that my sis's bf and I have made..
thanks alot,koh koh!!!:]
and thanks for aswan too for sending me the pymb logo..

So, I'm going to sleep not because there'll be full-day band today..
so I better go sleep now..

bye:]

whoa!!!

2008-11-19T21:48:00.000+08:00

today,
nothing much..
went band,
went tampines,
went bedok,
went mac,
went home..
hahaha..

tomorrow,
I'm going to do the band board thingy..
and tantan[tanhui] and maira are going to my house!

pray for me!!! i hope i'll do te board nicely!!!:]
and finish on time!!!:]

friday: band!!
yay!!
saturday: i'll fly back to indonesia!!!
happy yet sad..

Don't miss me:D
LOL!!

Anyway, today was miss cher's last day being in charge of band..
so sad..
she was really a great teacher..
she had always been there everytime the band needed her..
we'll miss you, miss cher:D

my flute was nearly spoilt!!!
thanks to jian hao for repairing my deary flute!!!
I was like crying..
I was really scared that my flute was really spoilt because of me..

I will take very good care of you,fluty!!
[i call my flute as fluty.. cute,huh?]

But anyway..
i still miss the kL trip..

okay then..
I have nothing more to talk about!!

bye:]

notes:

clarinet section - hope you'll have fun on tomorrow's section outing!!haha:]

deary flute section - we should have a section outing too!!!:]

zhengde - respect ur mom!!!!!!!!:[

syahidah and brayan - send me the pics!!!:]

tantan - see ya tomorrow!!darling!!:]

sleeping problems?!

2008-11-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

hey!! i cant sleep now,so i decided to blog..hehe..
niwae,i want to say thank you to tantan for updating my blog!!hehe:]thanks alot!!

just came back from malaysia yesterday..
it was VERY VERY FUN!!!haha..especially on the first day..
thank you mr.chiu !!!haha:]

group 1[first and third day]:
wah jing[leader]
hakeem
zhahirin
yuni
syahidah
me!
brayan
mirul
zheng de
and arif

group 1[second day]:
surriya[leader]
vj
syahidah
me!
zhahirin
yuni
siti
ashima
wah jing
mirul
arif
joel
and zhengde

i love my group!!haha..
they rock!!!
though we did'nt win for the match..
but it's okay..
the important thing is the process that we have gone through together!!
i like the first group more..
but the two groups were bout the same..
haha,it does'nt really matter right?
the scratching gang:brayan,syahidah and me..
and i don't know why suddenly i had bladder problem..haha:]
i kept needing to wee wee..
hahaha..
LOL
i really miss those times..
haha:D

so,am i going to sleep now??
i also dont know..
i regret sleeping the whole day..
i only woke up to eat and watch tv,the rest are for sleeping..

3 more days to return to indonesia..
happy because i can meet people that i have been missing them so much..:]
sad because i won't be able to go band:[
never mind..
family comes first!
hahaha

okay then,
bye:]